Impact of Suicide: Steve Moore
Little did I know that the weekend of Friday, February 13 would change my life forever. I spent the day with my son, Zach, here at Holly Bluff Marina and had a great day. We talked about a lot of things, his past relationships and good memories mostly. Everything was okay so I never suspected that he was going to get bombarded on late Saturday by all the negative stuff that was going on in his life. Had I known, I would have been there.
At 12:01pm on Saturday I got my last text ever from Zach saying Happy Valentines Day. I just now looked at that text for the first time since that day. We spoke or texted each other just about everyday. Whatever happened after that text was obviously more than he could handle. I understand, and have been there a few times with two divorces, losing my Father, Mother, and Brother but I was lucky enough to have people in my life that came to my rescue, some from places I never expected.
Nothing compares with the loss of one of your children. I wish I had taken Zach away that Friday like we talked about but it didn’t happen. Something was telling me to throw him in the car and drive. I prefer to say Zach died of a broken heart rather than he committed suicide. Anyone can temporarily be overcome with grief. I believe it is more powerful than any narcotic, more like an out of body experience. Hopefully someone will be there for you and you have the presence of mind to take their call or to call them. It can be a lifesaver.
“Zach, My Son
No words could ever say
How sad and empty I feel today
The middle piece of our family has gone away
I’ll leave the bitter grief that comes and I’ll try my best to understand
Zach, why did you have to go away
Why wasn’t it right for you to stay
What I am suffering seems so unfair
But one thing is for certain
My love for you will always be there
I’ll forever cherish the moment on Friday, the 13th, when I held you in my arms
And I am sure if I could have had you stay longer, all would be fine now
And you would grace all of us with your humors and charm.
A thousand words won’t bring you back, I know, because I’ve tried
Neither will a thousand tears, I know, because I’ve cried.
Now, your in spirit with my Father, Mother, Brother, and all up above
They will take my place for now and give you all their love
You were much too beautiful and misunderstood for this here
So go, rest in peace, suffer no more my son, I love you so, my dear...
For all my love and memories of you, I will hold forever near”
Much Love,
Dad